The road is long

Learning a language is a journey… a long, long, very long journey.

Starting out it’s all new and exciting and the beginner lessons are easy and fun. And then the road begins to slope upwards. And it gets harder to maintain momentum and to make progress. Just when I think that I might have made a bit of headway, I look up and see how much further I have to go, and my progress grinds to a halt as I stumble over my own feet and feelings of inadequacy.

Maybe it’s easier if you are able to study on a full-time basis, but trying to juggle a full-time job and the rest of one’s life and fitting language study in the bits of time that remain, means that it is difficult to commit to it 100%. I am a bit of a perfectionist and it frustrates me beyond measure that I haven’t got this language thing sorted out.

My brain leans towards problem solving and numbers and trying to memorise vocabulary and tones just does not compute! I like digging into the meanings of words and the grammar constructs that one uses to put them together, but all this is a bit useless if you can’t just splat it into a conversation at moment’s notice. I’m trying to learn the language so that I can converse and communicate, not just know all the theory.

When I start feeling that I am slipping backwards I tend to want to go back to Chapter 1 so that I can reassure myself that I haven’t missed anything out; so that I can at least tick a few mental boxes. I hate the fact that there’s a possibility that I haven’t mastered ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING. And it is so depressing to realise that there are still some words in Chapter 5 that I can’t remember, even though I’ve been along this bit of the road so many times before. It’s enough to make you sit down and cry…

I keep trying to find new ways of learning – different strategies, new software aids, online podcasts. I have got into the habit of collecting new textbooks – my existing ones get so boring after Chapter 1 has been re-visited for the 50th time.

In the Hithchiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams wrote about the babelfish that you could put into your ear as a translation device. I need someone to hurry up and invent one of those. Maybe I’m just lazy and these are all just excuses!

I guess that in the end it all boils down to the fact that I just have to put in the time and effort and walk up the hills – and there are quite a few – one step at a time. Right now it feels as though I am walking along the N1 somewhere in the middle of the Groot Karoo. The road stretches relentlessly towards the horizon and there’s no hint of a signpost marking the next milestone. I think I’ll just sit here for a while and take a little rest.


5 Responses to “The road is long”

  1. 1 saigon shopper
    February 5, 2011 at 17:40

    Please don’t give up, or get disillusioned. You have made amazing strides, and I can’t believe how well you have done. Yes, it will be slow, but at least you are going forward steadily. Best get that perfectionism sticker off your rear view mirror as it is blocking the view of how far along this road you have really come!

  2. February 5, 2011 at 18:14

    Thanks, Saigon Shopper – I’m just having a bit of a plateau moment on the language front – I promise I won’t really give up! Do I have to let go of the perfectionism sticker – I use it in quite a few places….

  3. 3 RoseTintedViews
    February 7, 2011 at 18:30

    Have to agree here! If I am not mistaken you are the one who successfully ordered my train tickets to Suzhou and The Western Lakes…just saying.

  4. February 9, 2011 at 13:06

    That was one of my better days…

  5. 5 RoseTintedViews
    February 14, 2011 at 17:34

    You are to hard on yourself! Mwah!

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